Wednesday, October 20, 2010

A Story Untold

The first thing I could remember was screams.  Screams of agony, that shook my mind and left a tingling feeling on my body.  Screams that you couldn't get rid of. 

The first thing that I could see was darkness.  Darkness and light, mixed together.  Everything was blurred, shifted in monotone. 

The first tears I cried were when I was first cut open.  That scar resides on the center of my chest, and it still brings up enough fear of the pain, when I touch it. 

The first happiness I was granted was when Thomas befriended me.  He had given me... a flower.  A white, tissue paper flower, but a flower none less.

The two gifts that I will always treasure the most are my katana, carved with intricate designs that are worn down with scratches, and my name.  These two things were both given to me by Thom.  

The last tears I will ever shed was three years ago, when Thom died after a year we escaped.  He died against the dirty snow, coughing up blood that stained the snow beside him.

I once told an acquaintance, or "friend" rival of a different gang that I did not consider myself to be human.  This is true.  Humans are born out of love, and are given emotion to feed upon.  I was never.  And truly, after a while, the emotions start leaving your heart, your mind.  I am merely a cold mind, residing in a shell of a body. 
----Ryn----
-KC
-Based off a RPG on CR, with my character Ryn 
Special thanks to Exo and Odin/VenM4ge

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Honestly?

So sick of faking all these smiles.  So sick of pretending I'm okay.  So sick of all this fighting, sick of being who you want me to be. 

How long can we lie to ourselves that everything's perfect?

How can you say you love her when you're giving up on her?  


Why did my cousin have to get cancer?  It's not life, death situation, but why?  He doesn't deserve it.   Please, Lord.  Please.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Before I.

Show me the light before I fade into darkness. 
Lead me the way before I falter in step.
Remember that I love you before it's too late.
Tell me with the truth before I am locked in a lie. 

Half Empty

Do tears show weakness?