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Tired. ish. I guess. Just had a tournament in karate today...and I failed >_>. But got to go to sleep, not writing much today.

Eh...Random report.

Whii. Got off a bit early from school for an ortho. Plus we had a party for band today XD. Only a few more days till winter break!

Seems like I'm a little more cheerful today. Hmm. But still just as tired >_>. I definitely failed my math test, for sure. Sigh. Oh well. Can't wait for the weekend, to rest.

Have you ever liked someone where you knew it was infinitely helpless? Not just like they were a popular person, etc. But they were far away from you and you knew you would almost never see them again? It hurts. It doesn't help that you can't see them, and it doesn't help that you really miss them. But that's just a thought.

The past.

Hmm. Haven't posted here, haven't been here in a while. It's winter break soon...well, it starts on the 24th. >_>. Unfortunately. I guess things have been looking up for me more, school has been...okay, life has been okay, I guess.

Have you ever missed the past so much? Like you couldn't bear your current surroundings...and you just really wanted to go back. To see those people who used to be you friends. To live the life you did back then.

Somehow, I've been feeling that more and more. There have been so many people important in my life, yet honestly, I haven't kept that much in contact, and it just isn't the same.

Pipe Dreams

Have you ever had goals, dreams, that you wanted to accomplish...yet you knew were impossible, because of your environment, because of your parents? Pipe dreams.

I want to get out of what people want me to be, and just...do what I want, truly. I mean, yes. What my parents want me to do...I am somewhat interested in. But I want to do something else. Something better.

Pissed off.

Damn it. Today...well, currently I'm really pissed. My dad wants me to do this club at school...yet the announcements said that to those who are 'invited'. He wants me to go and ask the teacher, and yet, as he continues, I'm starting to not want to do this more and more. Why is he so worked up anyways? I'm the one doing it. Not him.

Things have been going up and down recently. Basically everything's the same. Yet I honestly can't hold it in much longer.

Chained.

Chained forever into life,
Yearning for something beyond.

The noise of the day rises,
Yet the silence in the room echoes.

Help me, somebody.

In these lies of life,
What else is there?

Corruption reigns,
and,
truly, why must we continue on?

In this world,
Just what is out there for us.

Though I doubt anyone is reading this... comment, please. And, a shout out to the world. Why can't we do something? We are so aware, yet we are all just standing here. Don't you want something different?

...well, change isn't something that is good all the time. If the world were to stay like this, many would fall, yet many would rise. You can see it both ways.

The World.

A corrupt place, so confusing yet understandable. It's dark and shady, yet there are bright spots of light. Society is what corrupts and destroys, yet we understand most things. How come we aren't changing anything? How ironic.