Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Waiting, Watching

Quick post from Colorado, with my family at our annual ski/snowboard trip.  I'm sore, tired, and ready to switch back to my skis, but I must say that I have gained respect for snowboarding.  (Snowboarding on ice is miserable)  Colorado is beautiful, it's really pretty up here. 

Funny thing is, I've been thinking more and more of what the hell I'm going to do in my life, of how I wouldn't have survived had I not met the people I met, of where Max is and hoping he's moved on and gained hope.

I doubt most of those things will happen/show their answers anytime soon.  

You know how people say to never let go of your dreams and chase them?  In this lifetime, I doubt I will listen to them.  Society doesn't work that way.  People survive, people fall.  Teachers get less money than engineers.  Psychologists don't get many job offers unless to teach.  Electrical engineers are highly wanted now that we are more into electronics.  My dreams will most likely not come true, and even if I strive and strive, I will not survive.  Perhaps I'm being weak-hearted, being stupid and not putting enough effort in.  Perhaps.  But, the thing that I do know, is that the outside world, and society, is not forgiving and easy.

Here's a song that I've been hearing in my head recently, I hope that it'll bring hope to someone like it did to me.

By Your Side Lyrics

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go
 
-Tenth North Avenue

Waiting, watching for hope and kindness to let go of love.

2 comments:

  1. wow sounds lik ur rly havin fun in colorado! :3 an i lik ur song its very nice :)

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  2. Wow. o.o second follower, that's a huge jump. Thanks for listening to it XD

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