Going to church for the first time in a while. To be honest, I'm scared. I'm scared of being rejected. Of being... embarrassed. Funny thing is, it's church. Church.
It's also one of the places I've never truly belonged. But I do want to go. I need... to lift myself up again, look towards the light instead the darkness.
If that's what's meant to be.
Do you believe in destiny, fate? Luck, miracles?
I do. Because if you're someone who doesn't always believe in one's self, then there's at least something to hold onto.
Was it fate, destiny? Our meeting.
I truly believe it so.
But it's not the destiny, or God's will. It's just ourselves.
It's really ironic. Looking at the title I named this blog. "Fading from Eternity". Is that eternity "Heaven"? Myself just to lead into Hell? Or is it an eternity of being locked up inside? An eternity of darkness?
Kinda strange, thinking about it.
Some people, you remember, because of those little things that they do.
I need to be stronger. I need more... confidence.
I don't know anymore.
When you're lonely, you never realize who's standing beside you, until you're alone.
And to be alone doesn't mean that you have to be lonely.
Ah I know what you mean... I don't feel like I really belong to my church either... Good luck with going there then!
ReplyDeleteInteresting comment on destiny, fate, luck and miracles. It's interesting because once my Sunday School teacher had a conversation about luck. Apparently our religion should not believe in luck, fate, or the like... everything is supposed to happen according to God's plan. It kind of seems strange to me though... I'd have to say I still believe in these things, despite what I've been told.
Thanks. Went, and it was... okay?
ReplyDeleteBut God gave us free will. And isn't destiny, fate, luck, miracles... just another thing similar to God's will and plan? There is different views on it, and different names. Same here. Because if were were meant to be Christians and following the Lord, doesn't that mean that God gave us the will to chose to be with him? Or was it just meant to be that way? Something I've thought about before, but I agree with you.