Don't know anymore.

Everything. Is. So. Screwed. Up.

Only one thing I'm sure of.

I want to leave that place.

It didn't help that today brought me down. It didn't help that I lost to someone whose speech didn't captivate me.

But I thought about it this morning. I never would have fit in, even if I tried hard to be someone who I wasn't.

I never would have felt the same, as I did then.

They wouldn't understand. My online life, didn't revolve around that group. I was there for the role play. For that thrill.

Funny thing is... I remember my first role play. It was there, in a group, that was... okay. I liked the people. So many things, that I remember... And I just enjoyed talking to people, asking how life was. Heck. Though honestly...

My heart left, when RE broke apart.

When Max left.

When I lost so many friends.

When Marco left, countless of times.

When so many groups that I belonged to, broke apart.

And honestly?

I'm tired of this crap.