Waiting

Yesterday, I almost broke down at the sight of a simple Facebook page.  Is this, how weak I've become?  Damn.  The day before that, when I was cleaning my room and listening to some music, I almost started crying because of memories that I've lost, and memories I cannot retain.

Yesterday was his birthday.  The guy I used to like for a year.  Greg.
I'm not completely stupid.  Yet.  I noticed on Facebook, and then I commented and said happy birthday.  I almost broke down because I can remember how we were friends, good friends.  For 15 days.  Then things got worse and worse.  Now, it's been like a year and a half.  Now, I'm still waiting to let go.

Waiting, to let go of my stupid hopes and dreams.

Endlessly - Green River Ordinance

She is the days I can't get over
She is the nights that I call home endlessly
For you I'll always wait

Caught in the waves of hesitation
Lost in the sea of my own doubt endlessly
For you I'll always wait
For you I'll always wait

Change some words, and you've got my thoughts.