The Sky

The one sight of nature that never fails to amaze me... is the sky.  Whenever I look up at it, I truly can feel it's brilliance.  Just the clouds, the morning sun rays, peeking through.  It's all beautiful.

Sometimes... I feel so confused.  Recently, I've been thinking about church, my future, etc.  Church.  Every week, I feel like I'm afraid to go.  Even though I used to be able to look forward to it... now I'm just afraid of being rejected.  There are so many flaws I have, compared to everyone else.    My future.  I was talking to my middle sister last night, about our parents.  She said something similar to that they want us to take the easiest road out, so when we're done with college, we can do whatever we want.  My parents want me to go to Electrical Engineering.  My dad said that it is the center of everything.  But... I honeslty can't say I want to do that.  And I have at least, if not more 8 years befor I'm out of college.  I can't put up with it... if I don't love it.  I said I wanted to do something like teaching, about creative writing or something.  To express yourself.  Or teaching about life, etc.  I don't know.  I'm just.... confused.  Lost.  Sick of this.  And I was also talking about high schools to go to.  For some reason, my mom's really against one of them, that I believe is a good school.